There had been times when I was about to leave this world. Since then, I celebrate each birthday I was not supposed to reach. Life over death is a burden, but also a path of thankfulness and awareness. It reminds me of all the moments I would not have shared with my loved ones. If my own train had been stopped, I would have become the silent observer of a potential future full of beauty and vivid emotions. Back then, the colourful days seemed to be out of reach. Knowing the untruth of this dark vision, I want to convince every doubtful thought to vanish and to change into a strong belief of hope. Don’t get me wrong, it’s totally okay to feel the grey, black and blue. But it’s not okay to paint your heart and soul in these heavy shades until they stop the only life you will ever have. Everyone who was there knows how hard it is to keep going. One step by another. Everyone who accompanied a drowning soul to a better tomorrow has an idea how difficult walking with mental tons of darkness is. I want to encourage all these everyones’ to move on, to care for each other and to celebrate all the moments to come. The light ones as well as the darker ones. As long as you keep your head up over the horizon, you gain more and more trust in a future version of yourself. Life is worth it! So don’t stop going forward or even in circles.
